YAYAPOPS!

For the past few days... things have just been hard on me. I seem to be crying a lot every afternoon now. I have no idea why. No wait, maybe I do.

When my dad first passed away I know he was gone and I accepted the fact but now I guess I realize that I don't have a father anymore, someone to call "babah" and all! I usually see him in the afternoon when he gets back from sending my mum to work and I'll talk to him. I guess all that will never happen anymore. I guess I'll just miss how he defends me and all.

I just miss him so badly!!! Like really... really badly. I don't usually cry about these things but I don't know even when I met my brother this evening for tahlil I nearly cried on his shoulders. My brother just got back from UK... (btw this brother of mine is my adik-beradik sesusuan) oh well figure it out! I'm so close to my brother that he even seemed to be crying when I told him the story and told him how I felt at the moment.

I just miss my dad!! I seriously miss him! I miss his presence... I just miss everything about him!

I was ironing his shirts the other day and I couldn't stop crying...

I took this picture of him this January in Singapore! Erh imissbabah!


al-fatihah

So 6th June a lot of stuff happened. 1st and foremost it was my 21st birthday so happy b'day to me. :)

And I know some of you might not believe this but my dad passed away on 6th June 2007 at 1615Hrs. So I just want to thank everyone who came on the night he passed away and on the day of the funeral itself and to those who has been coming for the past three nights to the house for sembahyang jemaah and tahlil. I really appreciate all the help and everything.

My late father was a great man and I really look up to him. I guess this is how Allah wants it to be and He loves him more than all of us do. I just pray that my late dad will be in peace and that he is forgiven by Allah. I just simply miss my dad... I guess I was just too close to him and that afternoon itself around 12 I was still talking to him before my mom and I left him at 2 cos visiting hours were up.

I just wanna inform that I won't be posting up much for the next few weeks as I will be busy running errands with my mum.

I just hope that you guys will pray for my dad and that he will be with those loved by Allah.

Thanx Again.

1. Name someone who made you smile today
A lot of people actually - but most of the time it's my friends whom I'm chatting with now and ohhh my mum while watching the news...

2. What were you doing at 1:55 this morning?
like what most people I assume doing... sleeping..

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
chatting with friends and family and received a message

4. What is something that happened to you in 1990?
I think I just started kindergarten and I know I cried on my first day like most kids do...

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"OMG!"

6. How many different things did you drink today?
water, teh tarik, milo, water...

7. What color is your hairbrush?
Black

8. What was the last thing you bought?
Quiche at JPMC

9. Who was the last person you kissed?
erm.... tak ingat

10. What color is your front door?
it's kayu! what do u expect?

11. Where do you keep your change?
everywhere... but if its notes then in my wallet

12. What's the weather like today?
HOT

13. What is the best ice cream flavor?
coffee

14. What is something you are excited about?
this wednesday.. hehehe I'm so looking forward for it

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
like seriously I can't remember

16. What size shoe do you wear?
7/38

18. Are you random?
Most of the time

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
I can't decide... it's hard..

21. Do you talk a lot?
hahahah friends... go figure it out!! I think I do

22. Does your screen name have an "x"in it?
no

24. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Dulu lah! Friends from Jakarta

26. Are you ticklish?
on certain parts of the body

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
most of the time

28. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "I"
Ihsan

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "M"
Mawi (not the singer, but a real friend)

30. Who's the 1st person on your received calls list?
nuar

31. What did the last text message you received say?
can't disclose it... kinda personal but it sure made me smile

32. Do you chew on your straws?
Not anymore

33. Do you have curly hair?
Yes

34. What is the next concert you're going to?
I'm still wondering if Taufik will ever have a concert in Brunei but nope not looking forward to any concerts

35. Whats your favorite color(s)?
brown, black, red

37. What is something you say a lot today?
Seriously?

38. What is the last thing you ate?
Quiche from JPMC

40. Do you have work tomorrow?
It's Sunday so I doubt I do...

41. Is marriage in your future?
Insya Allah. Amin. :)

42. When was the last time you said "I love you."?
I don't remember

43. What should you be doing right now?
Resting

44. Do you have a nickname?
In the real world, I do have one and it's kinda embarrassing and my dad kinda refers me as adik...

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
Not really but I do enjoy sleeping

46. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
Long time ago... I tried once and that was it I guess

47. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
Haven't watched any (unless watching DVD counts then Grey's Anatomy Season 3, I know it's not a movie)

51. Did you cry today?
Nope...

52. Do you like someone right now?
I have no idea...

53. Are you currently playing any sports?
hahahahahah I wish

55. Last time you listened to music?
now... I'm listening to Mawi and Taufik

56. Last time you watched TV?
Watching repeat of APM 2006 and taufik is on... I LOVE I LOVE

57. Do you miss someone right now?
my friends

58. What are you doing at this very moment?
sitting cross-legged in my PJs watching APM and typing this

59. Who is the last person you talked on the phone with?
my aunty

60. Are any of your friends going to fill this out?
Don't know... but I hope those who has a blog would... but I know most of my jobless friends would love to do it..!! Guys,... I feel jobless lah


p.s Daddy is home sudah!! He got discharged this afternoon... Alhamdulilah everything is well except for his leg.. he can't really walk properly yet!

Syaf - Good luck with exams!! It's somewhat the final battle... hope everything goes well. :)

/added 5/6/07 - I changed question #8 and #38... heheh sorry Kak Lynn!! I missed out those two questions. :)