YAYAPOPS!

Went to Miri this morning, erh what a tiring day!! Went to Imperial and wanted to park at the basement but there were no empty spaces. Shit man... had to wait in the car for about half an hour and still no empty parking space. ERHHH!! But still went out and parked somewhere else...

Shit I guess I'm just too tired to type some more... sorry yea!! Maybe I'll update tomorrow k!!

Ohh about that someone... erm I'm not sure how I feel about him at the moment. It's so unpredictable... :( but one thing i know i miss him :)

i'll just leave u with pictures...

btw this is not the new hair.. hahah just a boring afternoon and I curled my hair..




/added on 10.12 pm

i'm officially in love with Dr. Fazley Yaacob AF4 Motivator :)

This morning had two functions to attend and well both of them are weddings. First was at 8 and it was the nikah ceremony, it was early cos my cousin, Abg. Nizam had to go to Belait for the nikah ceremony. I saw him before he left for Belait and he looked dazzling. Ahahah I've always had a soft spot for him cos he's so soft spoken and very nice but I'm all happy that he's tying the knot. Congrats bang :) Ohh and there met a few close cousins and a nephew who insisted on calling kaka cos he said he feels awkward calling me aunty and also cos I'm too young to be his aunty. hahah nice one Danny. Ohh and then around 11ish had to go to my cousin's in-law's wedding in Tanah Jambu. That was fun... it was a blast cos erm I don't know but I know it was fun.

Ohh tadi at 3pm on TV3 they had Perempuan Melayu Terakhir. That movie kan it never fails to not let me shed a tear or two. Ahahahah it makes me think about stuff lah y'know. ahahah erm.. i'm not so sure what I'm talking about either but yea i'm all for Perempuan Melayu Terakhir.

I'm watching High School Musical on Disney Channel and I've been waiting for it for days!! So yaye... and I'm 20!!! Erm...??

k then...

love
-me-

p/s i think i know i'm so infatuated by Rich, it's because he's so charming.. :) and soft spoken as well... very different than his outer look. :) ohh I like someone :)

I just finished watching Numb3rs and it seems to keep getting more complicated. Y’know the whole tragedy and the other stuff going on in that series. I guess other than Numb3rs the only series that I keep a track on is Desperate Housewives but then that’s getting boring too. It just seems to get too lengthy and boring and with the non-stop conflicts and such. And the thing is the non-stop conflicts are the same thing over and over again. I’m just so sick of it. And plus there are no more hotties in there so no use of watching it anymore. Other than that I’m all for Gol n Gincu that’s on every Sunday night at 10 on 8tv. So keep an eye on that. Ohh Jo, Ashraf Sinclair is not in there only for a few scenes only. He’s not as hot as he used to be. Ahaha… but he’s still good looking.

Ohh for these few days everywhere I go I see glimpses of Rich everywhere, it doesn’t matter whether they are pictures or just the word Rich. Wahhh why why why??? It’s too devastating to watch. Ohh he was on Trek Selebriti last night ohh he’s so gorgeous. I like… Ohh catch Estranged on Beat TV this Wednesday at 10 on Astro Ria (channel4).

K then that’s all. Will be watching the concert tonight and the only reason why I’m watching it is RICH!!! (<33)

I’m off steaming buns and corns. Heheh 

Lots of stuff happened this week. Ok I think it was on Wednesday while I was having afternoon meal with my parents, my mom turned around to look arah the kitchen area and there we saw a monkey sitting at the window. The monkey looked back at us and then ran away. So now it's payah to let the window open cos we're afraid that the monkey might try to sneak in. It happened before though and it took maggi and eggs and bread. Hahahaha.

Yesterday someone got back from Umrah and it was really sweet of him to like go online and then chat with me and stuff. He's a really sweet guy or should I say charming... hahah. Well he asked me out on another date again yesterday and erm.. I turned it down again. I'm just not ready to face him and stuff. He's supposeably my old school mate and stuff but the thing is I never really remember him. But yea he was from PGGMB too and I've seen him around town and stuff but never really got to talk to him and stuff. So maybe I'm just too shy... I'm just not ready. The thing is right... I'm just scared that if I wait too long I might lose him. :( erm...?

yea yea.. my cousin is getting married this sunday. yipee!! I can't wait to see my cousins from that side of the family. I hope to see someone there. I miss him too. :) Ohh it's not the same guy from the second paragraph. hahah :) lalalalal... ohh those red ants bit my toes. and it hurts!!! ok that's random but heck!!

haha ok then i guess that's all. i'm just bored at the moment.

love,
-me-

i still miss him. i mean i'm ok with him leaving and stuff but i miss seeing him in the diaries and stuff. the akademi just feels empty without him and his laughter and jokes. i'm still not over that i guess. i was watching lastnight's diary and i actually cried listening to his audio leaving speech and stuff. then they showed his so called 'date' with velvet. that was sweet though, they're such a loving couple. i hope their relationship will be stronger outside of AF.

ok lah enough of AF i have a new television series that i'm hooked up with. it's on 8tv every sunday night at 10 and it's gol n gince the series. watch it it's worth watching. sometimes i see myself in there. heheh ohh yea last tuesday was the series finale of charmed right. God that was sad cos i started watching
charmed back when I was still in Jakarta. God how i miss JKT. I want to go back there one day and of course I miss Bali. If I do get married one day I wanna go to Bali for my honeymoon. Yuhuu...

Oh Jo called me on Sunday, that was really sweet of her. have fun in UK k babes. I know you'll enjoy your time there. send my regards to your parents and your sister. Tell your sister I said congratulations :)

love,
-me-

That's it... I'm so disappointed with the results. My lover boy is OUT!! RICH IS OUT!! That's so unfair. From what I heard the votes for him didn't get through or something. Erh... I'm still not over it.!! I actually cried over it. Erh.. Rich I love you!!! You didn't disappoint me like you did last week. You actually did well for a rock singer singing Mustika. My support will always be for you and Estranged. I guess you're better off with Estranged. And Estranged rules!!! Love Estranged. :)

RICHAEL L. GIMBANG :)

ohh those who watched AF yesterday Rich had a haircut right and so did I... I'm loving my hair :) At last after a haircut my hair actually looks longer.

Y'know one animal that should be banish forever. CICAKS!!! I mean one can train a cat or a dog to go litter or poop at a certain spot but cicaks they just do their business everywhere. I have to clean up after them every single morning. It's just plain annoying. ERH!!! Owh enough of that now I'm watching Nanny McPhee just to kill time. I have nothing better to do actually. Therefore I'm watching movies hahah good right???

Owh about the friendster message that I got yesterday, I replied her telling her the whole story how I'm not after her boyfriend and such. The boyfriend is just a good old friend of mine back in Jakarta. Gosh I just can't believe these girls still do these things. Why can't they do some investigation before accusing. Wee!!!

Well i'm off watching Nanny McPhee...

enjoy i did knock

love...

I'm currently watching You've Got Mail and it's at the scene where Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan are chatting online for the first time after all the while exchanging e-mails. Hahah yes I'm in my lovable mood. Hahah watching romantic movies are just so... erh I don't know. My all time favourite should be Notting Hill, You've Got Mail and Serendipity. And I can't believe it a few nights ago I was watching Serendipity for I don't know how many times but it's just soooo lovely. I can't believe that I can actually watch that movie soo many times and not get bored of it. I was going through my movies drawer where I put all my VCDs and DVDs and I can't decide on what to watch so I just ended up watching Serendipity. YAYE!!!

Ohh yea about You've Got Mail ada this one part where Meg Ryan just misses her mom so badly and it was Christmas. Her business is in trouble because of the new book megastore, FOX, and she needs her mom's advice and she knows exactly what her mom's going to say. So why does she still need her mom? So the thing here is it relates to me, I mean I know how I can handle a situation and everything but I just need it to come out from someone elses mouth. Like the other day when I erm... well ended that somewhat relationship with that guy, I knew what I had to do but I just need to hear it from someone else. Weird isn't it? Does that make me a undecisive person?? Like I know what I'm doing but I still need someone else to confirm it to me??? Erh... am I making sense??

I'm not going to talk about AF anymore because I've somewhat lost interest in it. Not completely but yea... I think I might if Rich doesn't improve. I had high hopes for him and erm... is it fair to say that he disappoint me? Well yea... weird kan??

Ohh well...
thank you for reading :)

Japan lost :( Asian pride!!

ohhh i just got online and found a message in my friendster inbox and some girl is pissed off at me cos i wrote the boyfriend a testimonial. what in the world?? for goodness sake woman i've known your boyfriend even before you met him. what is there to be jealous about. it's just a friend-friend thing. aiyohh!! girls nowadays... it's not like i want your boyfriend...

so yesterday was 06.06.06 and it was my 20th birthday. Did i have fun? Erm... not so sure myself because it's not like I celebrated my birthday with cakes and everything but the small things that happened yesterday and today really made my birthday something special. My parents didn't get me anything because they didn't know what to get me instead they gave me money in which one half of it will be deposited into my bank account.

talking about my bank account yesterday some guy from HSBC called and he told me his name was Nicholas. So i thought yea well Nicholas sounded familiar but I didn't know it was my friend from highschool. I have to go to Gadong HSBC on Friday to get my Welcome Kit for my Headstart account. so yea hahah i know i'm jumping from one topic to another... so yea lets talk about my birthday again. Lots of people texted me during my b'day and some gave me testimonials and such. But there was one text that I didn't expect from someone. So yea... I'm happy about that. Thanx abang!! I'm not that angry at him anymore!! :) and then today i found a really sweet testimonial from someone so yea... thanx JFK... and this is what he wrote me...

happy birthday beautiful. have a good one k? one more year, and then call me... grin lotsa love & respect... johanfaridkhairuddin.com

3 more days to go... to what.. hahah not telling..

So yea lastnight I went to do some research about my new love guy... hahah, since he has a band I went to look for then band's info and I found it and it's Estranged. Well I've mentioned it before but I'm going to mention it again. I found something new from their website. Rich (my AF boy) wrote all of the songs in Estranged's album, In Hating Memory except for the Malay song which Estranged wrote with Norman Rashid. Wow didn't know my Rich is so talented.

Enough of Rich, I feel like perming my hair but my hair is still somewhat short. It's past shoulder length but I still find it short. I need to wait for it to grow longer then I'll perm it but I'm no good in taking care of my hair. I mean yea I shampoo then use the conditioner then use the hair serum but I'm no good in taking perm hair because I've permed my hair before and I didn't like it. So yea!!!

So about what happen lastnight, eventhough he said he's not angry at me but I think he is. He did say that let's just forget what happened and just be friends again. I don't feel like that's going to happen but then again it might right? Erh... I didn't really expect this to happen so soon.
Well I guess that's all for now k... :)

take care

/dealova - once

I did it.. I actually told him how I felt. Didn't know it was such an easy thing to do. I guess it's because he's a friend kan before this so it's easier for me to tell him how i feel and such. It's such a stress reliever!! *what???*

I miss Jo. How I was she was around so I can tell her all these.... JO balik Brunei!!! BALIK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Owh I got two songs from Estranged. There are Chocolate Syrup and Velocity. So I'm officially a happy bunny. :)

I love my life...

:)

Hello...

erm... where to start?? lemme start with I need to break up with a guy. Not really a break up but time off I guess. This guy asked me to be more than just friends yesterday but then I realised that I can't because I've lost interest in him. I got myself into this mess so I need to get myself out of it. I seriously have lost interest. It's hard to explain but then again.. here it goes...

I liked him last year then after a few months I liked him even more and I could sense that he had the same feeling too. I waited and waited for y'know the question but he never ask. Not until yesterday when everything just seem to be so late already. I got tired of waiting so I just told myself that ohh it's not worth the wait when I can go for other guys. So yea... I need to break all this to him. I'll feel bad about it but it's for my own good and for his own good.

/selalu denganmu - tompi